A night like before

Oh my god. Listen, the last night was like the nighst before she got pregnant. I was so drunk, i can hardly remember anything. I hope i don't cheated on her >.< No i don't think so, but it felt really well to be drunken. I lived in my own world, where everything is going after my mind and that felt really well. Like heaven god damned. My wife hates alcohol, her father died because of drinking, but i don't care. It's the only thing that keeps me happy. If i'm not drunk i think about suicide you know ? And that really scares me. Theres the fear from my inside. And it keeps my mind dark, just drunken theres a light inside. Lets keep it shiny.
Please pray ! Pray that i'm going to survive the next night. But don't pray for me, pray for my baby. I'm out of this shit.

Goodbye and thanks for listening.

Cheerz henryk

The last way to get out

Okay the situation is tensed, my wife has again just eyes for the baby. I'm just the person next, just an underexposed fool. Sorry, i like this word xP I think the last door out is named Alcohol. Yeah aufter this post i'm going to the castlebar and drink a little bit. Okey, a bit much. I hope i'm going to feel better after that. Wish me luck.

Cheers Henryk

the problem is the baby xD

Oh yesterdays was the finest day ever!
Anna (my wife^^) gave our baby to another family to take care of it for one day.
And this one day was OUR day (oh yeah xD)
Yes, it was the Anna and Henryk day and it was one of the most gorgeous, beautifl and lovely day I've ever had!
Sorry, I mean that WE ever had!
Anna and me spent the whole day together and it seemed like it had been the times before we've got the baby.
Well, please don't get me wrong, but without the baby we had so much more time for us and the nice things in life.
But now.. there's this baby... well, I like it very much, but it's tearing Anna an me apart... :(
Uhm... don't know what to write now...

Never mind, see you soon

Henryk



JS

omg I'm an idiot xD

ooohh..I'm sorry about what I've written yesterday .. (about this getting rid-thing..)

Of course I don't want to get rid of my baby.. I was just a bit..let's call it annoyed..^^

but today everything is better (:

my nose is getting smaller again and my leg is nearly healed :D:D:D:D (THANK GOD!!)

even Anna is screaming a bit less today :D (THANK GOD AGAAAIN !!! I really should pray to him for that...)

fortunately I can see all the positive things about beeing a father again :)

mhh it's now 9 in the morning and I'm really well-rested (for the first time since the baby was born) aah..you won't believe how good that feels !

The two Annas are still sleeping and I'm enjoying the great silence in here :D

After posting this, I will go and make (or try to make) breakfast.. I hope this effort to make something to eat won't fail like my last one :/

oh by the way.. I've talked to Anna about this sex thing ..

and she understands me :D (oh I forgot how loveable she is)

she also said, that as soon as the baby gets a bit older and sleeps a bit more, we'll have more time together..I hope it's getting better soon :D

and I'm really looking forward to this.. you can believe me ! ^^

well.. I'll go and get some milk now..it's breakfast time soon :D

yours henryk

D.R.

I hate babys

At the beginning she was the best thing what happened to me... But now i just want to get rid of her. She's permanently shouting, she cries all day and she even bites in my nose. That's too much. my wife can't understand my anger but it's not far that i'm going to explode. Baby here, baby there the baby is just everywhere ! I mean there's not time for sex or other things wich are important in the realationsship between my wife and me. That's really unfair and i'm not able to life on like that.
I want my baby to disappear, and i think she's going to ;)
Muhahaha

D.P

Stressful life

Not in my dreams I had ever thougth that a baby could be so annoying. Of course, I love her more than everything, but sometimes, there are moments, for example when she is the hole time screaming like a sirene or when she has the idea that it could be very funny to pelt her father [that's me XD] with her meal, in such moments, she is really getting on my nerves.
Today, she had the great idea to bite in my nose. I know, it sounds a BIT unbelievable, but she actually bit in my nose. And you can't imagine how it hurts to be bitten by a baby, even though it has no teeth.
Now, not only my leg, which is still red and hurts [but the blisters had already left^^], also my nose is enourmes big and it has the same coloure like a tomato. "Hooooooot"
Okay, I have to come to an end, I think Anna had started crying.

a.e.

Me and my baby (;

Omg it was a gorgeous day for me!
As time goes by and meantime my leg's getting better and I'm able to lie on the right side again^^
I was very auspicious about it and took Anna (the little one^^) with me into the garden.
I placed a blanket on the ground and sat down.
Omg Anna is a very amazing baby and hell, I'm so glad about having her and being her father. While I was playing with my little girl my wife Anna appeared and sat down,too.
Omg we're such a gorgeous, happy family and I wish that I'll never lose them.♥



JS