news ! news ! news !!!!

dear diary,
omg i have to tell you something important !
well in the last few days I was a bit upset, because I thought Anna was sick.
She feels nauseous all the time and doesn't want to eat ANYTHING
so i took her to the doctor's but this miserable medic
didn't know what's wrong with her..
well..now we know it: my beautiful wife is going to get a BABY !!
yeeah she's pregnant!
and I'm still shocked.
i mean, it's not, that I didn't want any children from her
but actually I'm a bit scared..
I can't imagine myself as a father, at least not as a 'good' one..
I think I'm still too childish inside my mind to even pretend to be a father..
omg I have to really GROW UP
aaahh I'm so nervous, even though I know, I won't become a dad in the next few months..
how long this is..

D.R.